reality bites

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(friday night)
oh my universe i actually feel human again.

not all the way better but to the point where i want a little toot off my pipe and some solid food. i'm actually going to class with rr tomorrow although i'll maybe skip half the stuff and just get warmed up. i'm still getting light headed when i exert myself and it's definitely not easy to find the logic inside of the stoned morass that is the sinus cold. but it's better.
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(saturday evening)
ahhh i can breathe.

class with the goddess was surprisingly good actually, in fact my body was much more cooperative than expected. cooperative enough that i am beginning to suspect that i got a cold in large part because my body wanted the week off.

don't scoff, i was feeling run down as hell before i got the sinus cold and now even though i'm not even all the way better everything is much happier. and if you don't think your body plays a large part in deciding whether or not it feels like getting a cold then i'm sorry.

it's still a bit annoying really since i had taken a week off from climbing already for resting purposes and suddenly it's something like three weeks with one climb. i feel all flabby and fat and unworked out and and and.... it's so funny what happens when you take an exercise junkie and remove her ability to exercise. it's like we go a bit nuts because we can't work out our stuff the way we're used to.

take me for instance, if i'm upset or stressed or angry or feeling hard done by i'll take myself climbing, toss my shit at a wall and walk out refreshed. or at least significantly less likely to murder someone... i've never been the type to go to a shrink, instead i take my negative feelings and transmute them into muscle.

muscle is so much prettier than a dark cloud over your head could ever be. and the best thing about exercise is that it's as addictive as any other drug and the act of exercising gives you endorphins that make you happy AND it makes you not hungry so it even helps with the dieting!

not that i need any help with that this week. i went and lost close to ten pounds while i was sick. no worries, i took myself to mcdonalds so i should be back to my usual whining about my inability to drop the last twenty pounds anytime now.

irony. i've lost that ten pounds like five or eight times already but my body isn't ready for it to be off. or i'm not since i keep eating at mcdonalds.

mmmmmm deep fried lard mixed with potatoes.

such deliciousness.
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i heard my father use the word excellentissimo.

my life is complete.
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so i've been thinking some about those pants i bought the other day. the ones that are a small and are supposed to make me feel all excellent about myself because i can fit into a small. the ones that have me shaking my head and wondering what most of the women i know would get to wear if *I* get to be the small. (and there was no XS either)

the lady at the store was very petite and she was wearing the kids sizes but there are at least 5 sizes of woman between me and her. she was like 5'2" with hips about the size of my waist.

so she's a kid and i'm a small (and the smalls are extra long on ME) and then there's medium and large and extra large. i'm currently hovering around the average size of the north american woman (13) which should logically put me in a medium or a large.

so the petite lady at the store buys all her clothing in kids. that means that there are enormous numbers of women out there who are also buying their clothing in the kids section. in ontario that's extra cool because there's no provincial sales tax on kids clothing but.

but.

if i'm a small now that means that every woman who is smaller than i am (by definition half the population of north america) is screwed when they're trying to buy clothing. so if those women are shopping in the kids section it stands to reason that they will be selecting with the eyes of an adult.

they will be after the scoop necked top. the low rise jeans. the sexy and form fitting dress. the mini skirt. the midriff shirt. the boob hugging top. the business casual outfits.

right, clothing the average relatively attractive and well built adult woman would want to wear.

which suddenly lends a pile of insight to the trend of marketing sexy clothing to children. some genius noticed that all the adult styled clothing in the kids section was selling like hotcakes.

said genius failed utterly to notice the inability of modern women to figure out what size they are or that half the women in north america are more and more being forced to shop in the kids section because manufacturers are making size labels based on 'feel good sizing' rather than reality. in turn said genius said 'hey look, let's market this sex clothing shit to kids aggressively!' and of course more and more small women are turning to the kids sections to get their clothing.

it's a catch twenty two.

makes you wonder what came first. ten year old girls dressing like hookers or that marketing genius crunching some numbers.

for me i'm not thinking that it's the ten year old girls.

not that we'll ever know, the ten year old girl of today is so well trained that she knows she's supposed to dress like britney spears every single day. funny because britney doesn't dress that way on her days off. okay it's probably not britney anymore, there's probably some new teen sensation who makes hilary duff look old but whatever, you get the gist.

makes you wonder what that girl would want to wear without all the 'tween' marketing doesn't it?

i guess it's still the same old question, which came first?