it's official...

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i am feeling strangely uninspired lately. i think it's really a bit of a case of the midwinter blahs but still. got nothing.

my apartment is a complete disaster area and i don't even care. i confess to doing dishes and laundry and that's about it. i can sort of find the floor and yet i'm fully unconcerned. i have a pile of crap on my plate and in my head and i'm still not back to myself yet.

it's freaking amazing how long one little sinus cold can take it out of you. i'm actually really grateful that my clients are all away for a couple of weeks. i mean this will be my worst month in a while but it's a 5 week month and all of them are coming back at the same time so *shrug* i'll be okay but it will be kind of hard.

i'm used to hard though so no big.

went climbing tonight with mg and man. i am so weak and tired it's kind of sick. i did more today, including downclimb a couple of routes but still i was wimpy. there's this 5.8 that's been there forever that goes over the door of the main gym and i tried to fall off TWICE before i made the tragically simple move that i've made a million times before.

i think my harness might have helped *blush*

it's really freaking amazing how weak you get how fast. i'm stunned. stunned.

i really want to clean my apartment and instead i watched all of my tapes. i'm actually CAUGHT UP on survivor. i know, i was stunned myself. i'll be all caught up pretty fast and then it will be weird. i'll be like waiting for television to be on.

hah who am i kidding? i'll so stop watching tv the second i'm really better. it's like soup, i only ever like soup when i'm sick. chances are if i ate soup today i'm less well then i think i am.

and yes, i ate soup today.

so i'm grateful as hell that my clients are all gone. i'm sad financially that i'm working an hour tomorrow but i'm so damm grateful from a sleep and rest perspective it isn't even funny.

in fact i'm going to bed right now and finishing this post tomorrow.
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pile and i are going apartment hunting in a few minutes. we're going to wander the streets with a cell phone and call all the places we're willing to live as we walk by them. we probably won't get to see much right then but we'll make appointments and leave messages.

i'm pretty stoked to be moving. i love this apartment but i've outgrown it now and it's time to let it go.

the plan is to teach out of the living room (well and he'll do ten body tune ups - a kundalini yoga thingy) and live in the bedrooms. it won't make a difference to him as he's already living in a bachelor and i see no reason why a cadillac and a television can't coexist peacefully in the same room.

all you have to do is put a drape over the tv and noone even realises that it's there.

we're looking to find a place with a balcony because then i can smoke weed outside AND we can grow herbs and spices for ourselves. maybe even a tomato plant or two.

ahh what bliss, outdoor plants in a little space of our very own.

it's looking like a renters market out there too which is even better. we've seen tons of ads for two bedrooms right around here that are only slightly more than we're paying between us now.

wait you don't get it.

what we're paying for our apartments NOT including what we're paying to the studio in rent. so that means i can chuck a couple of hundred extra bucks at the rent for a super nice place with lots of space and still i'll be doing a lot better!

maybe even save a few pennies when i'm not paying a quarter of my income from teaching privates to someone else for use of her space. hell i'm not even welcome to use the interac and credit card machines anymore so pretty much all of the advantages of working out of there have left.

ahhh apartment hunting, got to hate it... but the results will be SO worth it!

crap it's raining, we're phone apartment hunting instead.

ah well, shit happens and we do have a lovely magazine full of ads for just this reason. it just won't be as much fun and we'll have to look at maps and stuff.
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oh my fuck.

ministry is coming on june 6th.

oh my fuck.

i wonder if i can afford it. of course i can afford it, i've only liked ministry since HIGH SCHOOL!

in fact every day is hallowe'en (a song most people refuse to admit is ministry even when they see the album cover) is still one of my favourite songs ever.

hee ministry is coming.

to the koolhaus so it's even a small venue. wonder when the tickets go on sale... i'll need to find out exact dates cause i think that place tends to sell out fast as hell.

wow ministry. i've had more near misses with that band than anyone. god it would be great to see them, it's only been twenty years since i first fell in love with them.

oh man twenty years.

i'm officially old!
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