sayonara!

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wow

more than one day off in a row.

trippy.

in case y'all hadn't guessed from the previous i've taken a weekend off and i'm headed out visiting. no i haven't abandoned you i'm just away from the internet until i get home.

i know, you can't bear the trauma. if it makes you feel any better i'll miss you too.
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so i felt a bit ridiculous after my post yesterday because i assigned you guys homework. not ridiculous because i disagreed with myself but ridiculous because really, why would anyone bother to take homework from me unless they're paying me to teach them pilates?

course even with pilates i regularly say things like 'your homework is to go out and say one nice thing to a stranger' or 'your homework is to go out for brunch with mimosas' or 'your homework is to take a walk in the park with fresh snow all over it' or whatever.

guess it's a habit now. hee i give blog homework. god i crack myself up.

that said? i still think it was fantastic homework... so go do it :P
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i'm getting worried about my clutch. i don't think that it's going to make it until i can afford to fix it. fuck. fuck. fuck.

this sucks.

i was driving today and i started to notice changes in it's behaviour. this means it's fully dying now instead of just miserable and old.

shit.

i think i have to ask the mechanic if he's willing to let me pay him over two months. i wonder if he'll go for that.

the thing that makes this uberannoying is that i'll most likely be able to pay for it early in march. it's six fucking weeks away for god's sakes and if it wasn't for the week i was off sick for christmas i would be totally fine to do it next week.

i'm pretty sure it's good for a few more weeks cause it totally shifts fine... it's just hrm... if you don't drive a stick this is hard to explain but hrm. after i release the clutch (which has like 5% play at this point eesh) sometimes there's a funny sort of revving from the engine before it kicks in and the tires take off. it's hard to call because all the work i've had done lately has really changed the drive feeling of the car anyway.

dammit that didn't explain it at all.

regardless it's dying fully and i need it to hold off like a month. a simple month.

i can't be too upset with it really, it's the original clutch and the car has 297,500 kilometres on it... (uhh 184,858 miles) so it sure as hell got it's lifetimes worth and all. but damm car please six more weeks?

i really am going to drive it until it dies this car. well and the clutch too *grin*

it's so nice to be *this* close to finishing the major repairs that have been building up for like four years. i mean it sucks to be this broke but i do the clutch/transmission and one more seal and then i got nothing other than oil changes and general servicing until the timing belt in another 25,000 klicks.

so it's all good after this hump but damm. i'm concerned.

mom you've driven lots of sticks... how fucked am i?
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oh man, that came out so funny i'm leaving it.
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i went to a memorial service tonight. my old roommate's mother passed away after surgery for cancer a couple of weeks ago. for those of you who think you know who i mean? yes the lady i lived with in heathcote. yeah i know, she doesn't need any more crap in her life.

it was actually really great. sr got up and talked about her mom. told stories and read letters from her family and cracked jokes. she was awesome. she even joked about her knees knocking. i learned really cool things about her family that i hadn't known and i learned something about how to hold a non lame memorial.

so then there was a little gathering in the lounge of the funeral home and i got to see a pile of people i haven't seen in a while who happened to be wearing suits. damn they looked good. especially mc who showed up in kilt and full scottish regalia. particularly appropriate as babycakes is scottish.

i was delighted to realise that my SMALLEST suit fits me and it's TOO BIG on top. fits perfectly on the bottom though. which, when i think of it, is probably how it fit then too since i'm a size smaller on top than on the bottom. i've had a lot of business clothing over the years but there's something about a suit with a not too short short skirt and beautiful material that really makes you feel elegant and beautiful. [i was wishing i had emma's glasses to go with it though]

i can't really explain it but those of you who wear beautiful clothing know what i mean. it fits better and it somehow accentuates the right things without drawing attention to the things you'd rather pretend aren't there. i was actually stunned to see myself in it because i haven't dressed like that in years.

i seriously can't remember the last time i wore that suit.

i remember buying it though. my dad and i went to the store to get it (i needed it for court) and the saleswoman is like 'will your wife be...' and my dad and i looked at each other and lost it laughing.

my dad was all "my WIFE??!!!!???"

i was all of... hmmm 24? and he's in his fifties at the time. he was just so shocked that this woman would think that someone my age was his wife. no concept of the sugar daddy syndrome my dad.

that guy fell in love with my mom and i don't think he's looked back for a second

i can hear you guys you know. in your heads you're going 'yeah right' or 'typical kid being unrealistic about her parents' but no i'm not. my parents have been in love with each other for as long as i can remember and they're still each other's favourite people.

they walk down the street of their town holding hands and goosing each other and all the little old italian folks in their town basically consider them mascots now. seriously i can't tell you how cute my parents are. i'd post a pic i took of them walking in step holding hands down the street (from behind yet) but they would be embarassed.

i want to be them someday. well more myself really but like that with someone. the first thing my dad did when he came home from work, every day, was kiss my mom.

how many people can say that?
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i love seeing where my posts go when i start them with no plan.
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see you guys when i get back, be nice to my blog while i'm away. keep it warm or something!