inspire, verb

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you know how sometimes people can inspire you just by being themselves? somehow through talk or communication of whatever sort you end up improving your own life when they aren't even there?

there are the people that my grandmother thought you should marry, in fact what she said was "marry someone who brings out the best in you." smart lady.

personally i think it applies equally to friends, lovers AND spouses but anyway, i digress.

the point is that lately i have been hanging out with a chef. does he give me cooking lessons? no. does he cook for me? sadly, no. does he do anything other than talk about food with passion and joy? nope.

and yet there i was, bright and early on thursday morning, wandering home from work and thinking 'hmmm i should make breakfast' and since i only really have two kinds of breakfast ever and only one of them involves cooking this was pretty much a given. i wasn't having yogurt and granola and flax and fresh fruit and maybe nutella all whomped together. nope, i was having a couple of eggs steamed in a tiny bit of butter mixed with water and served inside a half a pita and beside a couple of potato patties (from cavendish farms... SO yummy.)

and then it hit me, why was i just automatically making the same food? how had i gotten into this same food rut?

i used to cook. i used to cook for othercat and i all the time. i used to make lunch and make enough for three days so i could bring it to work. i used to invent things.

in fact, i used to have a kitchen i LIKED and currently i don't.

but still, i said to myself, "self why are we making the same old thing? is it any wonder we never cook at home anymore?" and so i went to the store and i got a tomato and some cheese and a yellow pepper and some mushrooms and home i came.

in the SAME exact amount of time as my standard cholesterol laden and not very healthful breakfast?

i sauteed the mushrooms and peppers and then cracked some eggs over them and left them to sit. toasted up the tortillas just enough to make them warm and bubbly (in the toaster natch) and chopped up some of the tomato.

in less time than this post is taking to type i had two burritos, one with the egg mix, tomato and cheese and one with that plus some spicy smoked turkey. (of course garlic and hot sauce were in the eggs yeesh)

fuck me was it yummy.

and so easy that i made it again today.

[please note that pile has been feeding me home cooking for months, which hasn't hurt either]

and with that tiny little bit of inspiration i feel myself starting to cook with joy for myself again and this makes me so happy. i didn't notice it fading away but i did notice that it was gone and i considered it nigh on to a tragedy.

and now i know *how* it happened.

my accident made it impossible to stand for more than a few minutes at a time for like two years SO i got stuck in a rut and i didn't even notice it happen. i got SO stuck in that rut that even if i made something interesting i just thought of it as work. this from a chick that didn't have a recipe so she made up peppercorn sauce from scratch (and it was de-fuckin-licious.) this from a chick whose cooking has drawn pretty happening reviews.

i am not a chef but i am a heck of a home cook and i forgot that. hell i think my favourite cookbook rotted away when i wasn't looking.

so chef, if you're reading, which i don't think you are? THANKS! breakfast was delicious and inspiration yummier still. [no worries y'all, the compliment got passed along]
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hee:

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Independence - 85.7% 2. Varied Interests - 85.7% 3. Adventurousness - 75% 4. Financial Situation - 69.2% 5. Open-Mindedness - 63.6%	1. Selfishness - 54.5%

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Dating Weaknesses Explained
Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to his needs.
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what a crock of shit. my money. oh man.

*shakes head*
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oh

*giggle*

someone had a dream about me. turns out that even in my dreams i don't get any but i do go climbing a lot.

i can't tell you how funny i find this, really i can't.

*laughs*

in other climbing related news i went climbing four times in five days this week AND i flashed the new 5.10- and i think i might have been the first one up!
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my teacher today

was heard to utter the words:

"watch sassinak, she's got it"

of course i promptly lost it but STILL!

*such a HUGE snoopydance*

*crashes and sleeps*