lonely

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sometimes you go through periods of drought in your life and then you have to wrestle with the dilemma.

do i keep hoping or do i just give up?

if you keep hoping then you're an idiot because you never get anything you're waiting for. a watched pot never boils and so on

if you give up you are somehow removing the hooks that allow you to connect with other people. the less you trust the less you have reason to trust.

so what's the right answer? i'm currently in stage three chucking the whole idea and moving back into single is fun mode but i have to tell you that sometimes it's not easy. it's hard to come home by yourself. again. and just say hey to your cats before you fall into bed.

sometimes i think i write in my blog to replace the person that isn't waiting to say hey... how was your day?

and don't get me wrong, single is definetely fun... but still, it's been a while, it would be fun to get excited to have someone calling or coming around. that's okay though.

i got on a bicycle today and didn't have to jump off for like 15 minutes. that's a new record by ten minutes. I think I'll be on a bike next summer for sure. it will be nice, it's expensive to run a car in this city.
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class today went better. Honing my craft for my audition i guess. Glad I got an A on my exam before I had to do that *grin*

gotta sleep, big day tomorrow. class then work in the building then climbing with some blond man with a cute accent and then dinner with the folks. Perhaps sleep might be a good idea.

funny cause i thought i was going to be drunk and witty this evening :)