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it cracks me up that you guys like me the most when i feel the most out of synch and the least inspired. funnily enough that happens to me when i teach too. i taught this class today that i was *sure* was totally discombobulated and weird and they fucking loved it. they were coming up to me after and thanking me and blah blah blah.

meanwhile? yeah i thought they were bored and not feeling challenged.

just goes to show you how fucked our perceptions of our effects on others can really be.
[so that was friday]
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fuck i had most of a post here and then firefox crashed when i asked it to do 97 things at once and now my post is gone. and it was a little ramble about hockey day in canada and how i was fully watching it in it's complete hokeyness. AND because firefox crashed instead of blogger burping there's nothing to do to get it back.

ah well, it was kinda lame anyway.
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and then, i did another one and shortened the hockey ramble and talked about advice that hits you like a punch and started in on the canadian election and firefox crashed again.

so yeah, here goes round i've lost track. wish me luck.
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there's an election in canada in something like two weeks. this sucks because it means that i actually have to pay attention to those stupid bastards while they beat each other up in the media and try to blow hot air up my ass. the mud slinging is really getting to me.

i have never seen such a horribly negative election campaign in my life. i'm sorry. i mean i've never seen such a horribly negative CANADIAN election campaign in my life. all they're talking about are the things the 'other guys' will do that are awful but noone is really talking about what they will do instead. they're just being evil.

picking horrid pictures of each other and saying nasty nasty things wrapped up in slick marketingspeak. i'm telling you it makes me want to vote NDP or green or independent or something. i mean hell i hate the conservatives but the liberals are starting to piss me off almost as much (close to more actually because i expect better from them).

in fact i'm so disgusted that i almost don't want to vote just because i hate them all. all they're doing is lying and trying to figure out what they can do that will fool me into voting for them.

would that someone would just tell the truth. god i wonder if anyone even knows what that is anymore. for serious some of the ads make me well up with tears i'm that upset about them.
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it's weird, it's the third period in the vancouver/calgary game and i'm finishing up my third blog post for the day... except it's the same post. i've been just about ready to post it TWICE now and then crash. and the first time was during the first game. the second time was during the second game and here i go again during the third game.

this is actually the best game of the three by far. the habs walked over the sens 4-1 and the leafs trounced edmonton 3-2 [hee see how i said trounced?] and my boyfrienddarcy tucker scored a goal despite being all injured. just somehow edmonton seemed outmatched the whole time.

calgary and vancouver are fully even and this game rocks. okay while i typed that calgary got two goals and now it's 3-1 and way less interesting. but still, it's been fast and clean and i'm really enjoying it. man i watched enough hockey today for the next month. or until the olympics.

man i love watching the olympics. as much as i love the stanley cup and the US Open tennis championships... something about watching the best of the best fight it out...

damm the boys are starting to fight. this rivalry is intensifying as the playoffs get closer and closer and as it becomes more and more apparent how well matched vancouver and calgary are. i give the edge to calgary myself because of the kipper. i can't even imagine how that guy just makes the puck fly off and away from the net. it's like he has a magic shield or something. okay not so magic, it's 3-2 and suddenly it's a hockey game again.

also? it cracks me up how canadian hockey announcers sound.
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have you ever gotten some advice that sort of hit you upside the head? some words come out of the woodwork and into your life and just turn all of your understanding of something on it's ass? thoughts that punch you in the gut?

well i got me some of that just the other day and i'm still sort of reeling. my brain is going around in circles except it's doing it on whole new tracks. in fact it's like the circles are laying new track. okay the metaphors are getting out of hand here.

anyway i really thought i had considered all of the possible ramifications of a certain situation and the friends that i consulted agreed with me that i had and then out of the blue? some new advice. a thought that didn't come from my own head.

a thought with the ring of truth.

because that was the thing with all of the possibilities that *I* had come up with... none of them felt right. they felt like me trying to explain something but not necessarily me understanding something.

and what will i do with this new understanding? well my brain hasn't finished mapping out the new paths but i'm thinking that the way that i do a lot of things will change now. or at least my perspective on a few things will be different forever.

that's pretty cool from what was essentially two lines of text.
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wow, it's 3-3 and the third just ended and this game just went into sudden death overtime! woo hoo!

this really *is* the best game of the bunch! and there's a penalty! damn you guys, i'm sad for you if you didn't watch this game! and vancouver wins 4-3.

wow. wow. that was awesome!

have a good night kids!