profilez part deux

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okay the list has been narrowed and the semi-finalists are as follows:

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i have definite feelings against two of the above but will put them in for voting with willingness to be swayed since y'all have to look at them. i do get veto and tie-breaking of course :)
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i'm feeling a little strange or odd or off lately. i could say discombobulated but stonednerd already thinks of it as my word so you know, i have to share the discombobulated love...

what makes this oddness sort of hard to pindown is that i have to sort out the difference between hormones and actual emotions. being female my body takes me on a little trip down emotional mood swing lane for a week out of ever four. what this means is that mood wise i'm basically like vancouver.

(in vancouver they say 'if you don't like the weather wait five minutes')

if i'm down or sad or maudlin or off or odd or whatever? i have to wait a week to see if it turns out to be that time of the month or if i'm actually feeling that way. it makes it really hard to make decisions about anything that has any kind of emotional quotient.

there is nothing worse that going off all ranting and mad and then two days later realising it was your hormones taking a dive off that bridge for you. and sometimes? even if you tell your brain that it's hormones?

it goes into deep denial and tells you you're wrong. it claims to be sane and rational. it's sure those pesky hormones can't possibly be why it wants you to chop someone's head off with a cleaver.

it's a brain, it's functional and logical and smart. it's the new mark three brain that doesn't have emotional responses that are triggered by hormones.

i wonder if denial is a hormonal response?

the point is that this makes discerning your own feelings extra difficult. it helps to have some awareness of your cycle but that's kinda fluid anyway. and it helps to know your response to things like hunger or tiredness.

so i've been feeling kind of odd and a little down and i've been kind of waiting to see how i felt after i figured out where i am in my cycle or after i ate or slept or worked or didn't work or recovered from my cold or or or.

except that i think that this has been an ongoing underlying thing for a while now.

i think i'm feeling vaguely disatisfied and i can't really figure out why. i'm hoping it's just that it's time to move out of my apartment or that poverty sucks or that i need to get laid but i'm not sure that's it.

i think that maybe there's something more up and i haven't figured out what it is.

ah well, it's saturday and i have some hanging with my best friend to do and i'm sure this crap will sort itself out as it wills.

happy voting!