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Monday, March 20, 2006

impressions

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really early on monday:

i'm watching curling.

this is bad as it's 3:24am and it's really good curling.

fortunately i can turn off my ringer and sleep in tomorrow. monday is my favourite morning of the week if i don't have appointments.

okay i think i may have come to a conclusion about the profile picture question. y'all and i like the one that's there now... so until i see something that i like more i'm going to leave it. maybe i'm only allowed to have one eye for blogger or something.

protests are welcome :)

man quebec is doing some HOT curling.

speaking of ice sports, i was watching hockey last night and the leafs game was so boring that i watched the canadiens. if you understand hockey rivalry then you get that i basically just told you that in hockey terms i decided to go lesbian.

fortunately there was a stagger of about ten minutes between the games so i got to watch most of both of them. and i noticed something really strange.

[damm, ontario is fucking lucky quebec only scored 2 on that end]

the leafs were trying.

wait it gets weirder.

not only were they trying but they were also creating scoring opportunities. well okay, they were trying to. they weren't doing it that particularly well okay but they were trying. they were passing the puck and.

wait for it.

they actually took shots at the net.

yeah it's okay, i was stunned as well. they were down four nothing and instead of giving up they got back two. it was so weird. i was like looking for the evil twins and trying to figure out what was going on. i decided that maybe they were trying something new.

i'm not sure how i feel about it.

also? i think i may have seen a moment of defence.

i know!

anyway an interesting shift. i don't even care that they lost, if they're actually shifting their strategy this is *wonderful*!

probably too late for this year but you never know right?

i'm not sure how i feel about this because if pat quinn actually pulls a miracle out of his ass and the leafs make the playoffs then he might not get fired and if he doesn't get fired it's several more years of this bullshit that the leafs have been throwing at us.

it's so hard to know how to feel and all.

damn that was some good curling that ended at 5am... quebec won by a rock but they really dominated the whole game.
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later on monday
monday
monday
i got nothin'

it's monday.

a friend of mine doesn't call me back anymore and i'm not sure how to take it. i know that he just bought a house and he's really busy with that. i also know that he has a demanding job and a busy schedule but he just never seems to have time for me.

when we make plans he cancels them.

when i call him he doesn't call back.

when i suggest plans to his voice mail he doesn't bother to call in time to confirm or deny.

when he was always busy but he called me back it was cool but now he doesn't even call. i mean i guess it's okay if he doesn't want to be my friend anymore but i hate this guessing bullshit. i mean last time i decided someone didn't want to be my friend anymore it turned out they were just massively special needs with email.

but this is different because we live in the same city and he's always called me back before. even if we couldn't hook up we at least talked. this is even more different because we also share a professional relationship and he's not calling me about that stuff anymore either.

i know that i should call him up and ask him if something is up. and i will do that eventually but at this point it's still too much like a stalker until he does this for a while longer. i'm just starting to note a trend and i don't like it at all.

i'm especially pissed if he is distancing himself from me because i hate being dumped with no explanation.

course it's probalby karmic revenge for some dumpings i performed in just that manner when i was a lot younger. note the crucial words when i was a lot *younger* though. somehow it's different when you're an ass and still young. you're kind of expected to go through that and come out the other side all mature like.

if he were 25 i would expect this sort of crap. but he's not. well i hope i'm wrong anyway.

i was wrong about a meeting that i attended today. the lady who owns the studio that i rent space in is meeting with all of the teachers that rent/work there to sort of go over some stuff and talk about some changes... and i thought she was raising my rates or ushering me out the door or firing me.

i'm so paranoid... it's like i just assume that no one likes me and everyone is out to get me and the universe is nasty and then?

yeah nothing.

the politics at that studio are all outside of me and are causing some changes to be made that basically don't affect me in the slightest... so it's not about me at all.

*laughing my ass off at my own hubris*

:)

happy monday.

30 Comments:

Blogger kathi said...

Geeze, what's his problem? There wasn't any fall out or anything? Maybe you should show up, take some takeout or something and just show up. Talk it out. I don't have many friends, I couldn't afford to lose one.

Curling? Casey and I watched it in the olympics...I think it was the olympics. Can't believe how we both got so into it, the next thing you know, it's like an hour later. Addicting.

3/20/2006 05:17:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

kathi i have no idea what his problem is... but his schedule is at least as crazy as mine so if i show up at his house he's just as likely not to be there. and i just keep leaving messages that don't get answered...

i don't want to lose this one either dude, i just have no earthly idea what's up.

curling is totally addictive to watch. i call it chess on ice. the same way tennis is chess with sweat. it's way fun to watch and you can't really figure out how... my favourite trivia about curling? at *the* briar? the bar has more seats than the stands!

3/20/2006 05:27:00 PM  
Blogger Light Strikes A Deal said...

Maybe he's calling you back in his brain and just confused. I know a guy that honestly does that all the time. I'm trying to convince him to start writing down actual verses imagined conversations. He says he'll think about it...... I think.

3/20/2006 05:41:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

hey i think i know that guy too... does yours have email and phone issues or just email?

:)

3/20/2006 07:50:00 PM  
Blogger mightydoll said...

plugging!

I have a new post, I'm kinda pleased with it!

Also, totally dig where you're coming from on the lack of communication tip. It's kinda the same way I'm feeling about Ted.

3/20/2006 09:02:00 PM  
Blogger DZER said...

winter sports fun!

as for the "friend," it appears he has metamorphisized into some major kind of jackass. It's one thing to be/get busy. It's antoher to routinely cancel plans and blow off friends and not return their calls.

I used to be the one in a relationship constantly trying to make it work and to be the good friend and to make the friendship last ... then I figured if it was that one-sided, it wasn't a friendship for true ... and I started just not expending the effort, choosing to instead spend that time and energy on real friends.

happy monday ... even though it's halfway through tuesday here LOL

3/20/2006 09:26:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

hey md plug on!

that's a good post too, i enjoyed it muchly.

yeah i don't know how i feel about this at all ... especially because i need him for work. i can grok that re ted. now that you know he's fine you want to kill him for disappearing.


dzer: winter sports rock!

yeah i don't know what's up with him but i think he's decided i'm too much work or something. i'm really baffled. if he at least called me back a little more?

what's funny with that decision is that you end up with fewer friends but you like them a lot more. i'm sad but i think that's what will happen with this friend. don't want to lose the colleague too though...

heh... happy tuesday to thee sir.

3/20/2006 09:55:00 PM  
Blogger Matt Vella said...

You are SO Canadian what with the hockey and curling. I love it. :)

3/20/2006 11:03:00 PM  
Blogger terry said...

sunday was apparently hockey day in blogland...!

and that sucks about your friend. it's hard to know when to give up and when to push to find out what's up. i'll bet if you ask him if something's wrong, he'll be surprised and not even realize what a turd he's been. he is a GUY after all...!

3/20/2006 11:03:00 PM  
Blogger la lonely girl said...

dude, curling has to be the.best.winter.sport.ever. i have to admit that i'm not really much of a sports buff, but there is something truly addicting about curling...

and your friend...try not to worry. i know, it's ms. worry-about-every-damn-thing giving this advice, but think about it...why would he want to lose you as a friend? he's prolly just temporarily got his head up his arse and will be normal again soon once he pulls it out and gets a sufficient oxygen supply. i dunno why, but it just kinda happens that way with some guys.

and finally, your current pic is hot on many levels. the one eye thing is sexy and also the rack is pretty impressive. i give 1 vote for the current pic even tho i voted for an entirely different pic on an earlier post...lol

3/21/2006 12:13:00 AM  
Anonymous clarity said...

I missed the voting!

But I'm glad to see F is staying. Its definitely the best. Love the one eye thing and that its outdoors.

BTW, we recently went to Allan's gardens and I highly recommend it. The flowers are blooming and it smells wonderful. Its a great pick-me-up for the end-of-winter blues. I hope your blog doesn't limit to the number of hyphens I can use in one sentence.

Anyway, Allen's gardens. You can just visit or take some pics against the backdrop of trees and flowers.

eek, gotta go.

3/21/2006 12:55:00 AM  
Blogger sassinak said...

matt: curling and hockey are excellent sports. as is footballimeansoccer and surfing and tennis and and and

:)

but yes, i'm ridiculously canadian


terry: who else blogged about hockey?

yeah i don't know what to think about my friend at all. it's just really strange. that's a good point about the him being a guy. i'll call him a few more times before i get wiggy.


lala: i'm dying to learn to curl actually, i don't know why i haven't done it yet. also there seems to be lots of cute boys that curl these days...

yeah you know i think you're probably right. he did just move in to a new house and all that stuff. justify justify :)

how are you feeling ms. lonely?

i think i'm keeping this one for a while. something will come along that calls my name. maybe lsd will post whatever version of icsass is current and i'll add that to the voting.

3/21/2006 01:01:00 AM  
Blogger sassinak said...

clarity: i'm sorry you missed the voting. if there's more voting should i call you? or email you?

yeah i just didn't love any of them. and if one was really good it would have been a clear winner i think.

allan gardens huh? hear that johnny? time for you to take me back to that conservatory we went to way back when... i think you know it :)

more hyphens MORE!

oh with a camera. smart clarity! :)

3/21/2006 01:13:00 AM  
Blogger la lonely girl said...

oh my GOSH! dang i wish i still lived in canada! we could totally take curling lessons together!!!! gosh dang!

well, if you decide to take up curling, do put in a good word for your cute friend in new england (uhh, that would be me) with the hottie curlers.

and how am i feeling? meh...pretty lonely still. but the sights are getting a little more interesting each week. and thats always a good thing.
now that it's tuesday and you have the whole studio politics thing in hand, etc, etc, i hope you're feeling fabulously.

3/21/2006 07:28:00 AM  
Blogger Natalia said...

Yeah the whole being dumped without so much as a warning or anything really sucks donkey balls. I have been there in romantic relationships. But the whole friendship thing is somewhat different...people grow apart and maybe this person feels weird about sitting down with you and saying our interests have become different and I really don't feel like hanging out with you anymore. Or something like that. Now you know I am all for honesty and I think even omission is lying. But not everyone has the balls or maturity to have those conversations. And I am sure I have grown apart from someone and not had that conversation. But it seems you are trying to reach out...which is another difference...cause when people grow apart it tends to be that they both understand and noth let go...vause when one is stillr eaching out then there needs to be some clarification...at least I think there should.

Damn I am verbosing all over these comments...I will go shut up and be stroppy.

-N

3/21/2006 09:49:00 AM  
Blogger sassinak said...

lala: damm dude i'm with you on the gosh dang. it would be SO MUCH easier to get into a new sport if i had some company to do it. i need to find a sport that's sorta one sided because so many of my clients do that kind of thing. i'd like to see the repercussions...

have you noticed how hot some of the young curlers are? i was STUNNED.

well meh sucks but at least the sights are starting to catch you attention. that's the first step right?

i feel pretty damm good today except for the staying up way too late chatting online part :)


nat: i hate it. i've done it to people so i'm sure that i have it coming now in that whole karmic retribution sense of things but nonetheless... at least in a romantic relationship you have a good shot at actually sensing that that sort of crap is actually happening, with a friendship it's more subtle and weirder.

if he doesn't want to hang with me anymore that's okay, but what about the professional bit... can't i still have that?

i think omission is lying within reason. sometimes you don't actually have to tell the whole truth. sometimes it won't accomplish anything. like if you hate your pal's new beau you can't rant about it for an hour cause that will alienate them and not accomplish anything... so you say 'i have reservations' and you leave it at that :)

hey lots of people don't have the balls to do that and yet still, i don't care, i just want my friend to be calling me back.

i like when you verbose so stop apologising for it. as for the stroppy? *huggs* babe and i hope it passes when it should.

3/21/2006 01:35:00 PM  
Blogger da buttah said...

i'm guilty of that. when i get all shades of busy, the first thing that falls off my plate are my really close friends and my family. mostly because i know they'll wedge their way back onto my plate

hot guys do curling? my parents live like 2 minutes from the US Olympic Curling training center..may have to go crash!

3/21/2006 02:23:00 PM  
Blogger Light Strikes A Deal said...

Oh my guy has even worse phone issues than email issues. Ask Hubris. He knows my guy too.

3/21/2006 04:05:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

elle: we all are but this has been going on for weeks and weeks and if he doesn't call me back ever i'm not really sure what to do about it... i'm trying to wedge but i feel like the plate keeps moving.

dude all i know is every time i turn on curling there's two old guys, 6 young guys and at least two of the young ones are at least fuckable if not hot...

and man the canadian rink that won in torino? ALL hot!


lsd: i think i know that guy... he only answers emails about dogs *g*

he's WORSE with phones? man how does he keep any friends?

3/21/2006 04:33:00 PM  
Blogger Hubris said...

I do know the guy. He keeps friends because his friends are just that. Poor communication has little bearing on that if you're lucky.

3/21/2006 04:44:00 PM  
Blogger Hubris said...

finally. I got Safari to read your fucking blog properly. I was trying for hours

3/21/2006 04:45:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

hubris: you are right and not right. there is only so long that i, for example, will try to communicate with you. at that point i'll give up and assume you don't want to be my friend anymore.

now i try for a long time but nonetheless i'm sure there are people out there wondering why i don't call them anymore...

also? does lsd's blog load ok? or elle's? like is it the recent comments or something else?

cause i suspect it's the template which is SO about to change.

3/21/2006 04:59:00 PM  
Blogger Light Strikes A Deal said...

He wonders that same thing sometimes.

3/21/2006 05:52:00 PM  
Blogger da buttah said...

*looks up curling dates for the canadian team*

i'm coming to visit!

3/21/2006 07:55:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

lsd: that doesn't surprise me... some people have a low tolerance for being ignored...


elle: hee

look up the guys who won the gold in torino...

hee ELLE IS VISITING!

3/21/2006 08:37:00 PM  
Blogger debambam said...

LMAO at tennis is chess with sweat! Your so right, but forgot one very important thing, there is sweat, but GREAT BUTTS aswell, i'm a butt girl through and through...love em....

Anyway, as for your friend, STUFF HIM. Or ask him straight out 'what's up?' At least then you'll know...

3/21/2006 08:44:00 PM  
Blogger sassinak said...

deb: don't you hate the current men's fashions in tennis? baggy everything and can't see their arms or their asses. damm shitty assed baggy men's clothing fashion crap.

mmm butts :)

i'll ask him, after i leave a couple more messages... (one of my last two actually said 'you never call me back anymore')

3/21/2006 11:50:00 PM  
Blogger HuneeB said...

1st; sorry I fell off comments
:( I didn't vote

2nd; if I would have voted I like the licky puppy one you glow in that one, look really happy and the wittle bitty puupppy is SOOO cute!

3rd; Just have to mention I really like Kathi, she is so well spoken articulate and caring. There is something calming that I get just from her picture, you can tell she has a wonderful heart.

4th; okay I have had a long day either that or I am just dumb...
*whispers to Sass - what is curling?* I am blanking, it's on ice? :( I am confused

5th; glad you didn't get uprooted by the studio politics (I like ya I won't fire you!)

Last (well at least for now) I am really sorry about the friend in hiding...I hope that maybe you are just internalizing the thing too much and that maybe he is just temp. gone, it is sad loosing a friend.

oh one more thing, mmmm butts! AND shoulders! hhmmmmmmmmm

:)

3/22/2006 02:20:00 AM  
Blogger sassinak said...

huneeB
1. shit happens babe
and it's okay with the voting, none of the pics were right so i didn't change the profile. i may just change the whole blog though...

2. that one tied with the one that's still up now

3. me too

4. uh... looks for url. here with a pic of the rink and all. it's basically bocce on ice but look at the link...

5. yay!

i'm sorry about my friend too, it's weird stuff it is, and i would think that if nothing else the professional relationship would be worth maintaining. i will get a bit less sad and call him in a couple of days.

i expect i'm internalising but well... just because you're paranoid...

mmmmmmmmmm shoulders.... and obliques.

3/22/2006 08:09:00 AM  
Blogger HuneeB said...

I fear I have never seen curling

3/22/2006 10:49:00 AM  

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