sneaky bastard!

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hillside.

hillside hillside hillside.

yeah, you.

i can't believe that you're here, in fact it seems like just yesterday that i was bemoaning the fact that you weren't here for another six or eight or ten months and then whammo!

there you are.

i'm not really sure how you did it, i've known your dates since last july and yet somehow you snuck up on me.

my bags are packed and i'm ready to go and yet still i don't really believe that tomorrow morning i will be AT HILLSIDE.

even as i type this i don't really believe it. that may have something to do with the four more clients and band practise that i have first... it could also be related to the anti-climax feeling that i've had going on all summer.

i'm here, i'm tanned, i'm living my life and yet somehow i don't really believe that summer is upon me. my body believes it because it's warm all the time and gets to go outside in basically no clothing and still be happy.

my brain? not so much.

it's probably got something to do with the utter lack of sleep that i've been suffering under for that last few weeks. some combination of heat and loud people outside at ungodly hours and the little hamster in my brain going ape shit on it's wheel.

like seriously you little fucker would you please retire already?

i really thought hamsters had shorter lifespans.
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this post is being written in my breaks today, expect it not to flow :)
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so yeah i got maybe four hours of sleep last night and the same the night before and the same the night before that and so on. it isn't pretty this summer at all and it doesn't seem to matter when i go to bed, i just can't fall asleep until basically just before it's time to wake up.

at this point i'm wandering around in a daze like a stupid and teaching my clients on some weird channelling the universe sort of autopilot. like they're getting great lessons and i am somehow hardly even there.

yes, it's freaking weird. like a lot.

nonetheless my spirits are high and i'm feeling well fed so there's really nothing to beef about except that i'm starting to really wonder just how little sleep a human can actually function with. methinks i'm finding out this summer.

people have actually been heard to say to me 'you look tired, fabulous but pooped' and they're right, it's just how i feel. hopefully this won't affect that thing next week i'm not telling anyone about until i know what happens.
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i've chosen a new approach to hillside this year. gone are the sarongs down to my ankles and wandering around without a bra on. in is hot skirts and shirts with built-in bras. this will still give the appearance of bralessness while giving the girls a bit of a lift.

yes they still pass the pencil test but the pencil sits lower than it used to.

it just seems to me that i may have better odds of being treated as a woman if i LOOK like a woman.

i know, weird.

and yet i still think it's a good idea.

i might retire the sarong under hat and over head and i might not. that will be determined by the weather...

and maybe a little more random swimming in public instead of only off the volunteer beach.

oh no! i'm doing like johnny kanuck said and putting on my best cougar outfit and going trolling!

fuck me, i'm predictable!
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in case y'all hadn't caught this detail yet, i'm not here this weekend, in fact i leave my blog in your hot little hands and expect to find a million comments pining for me when i get back!

*snerk*

okay 37?

three??? *grin*

and in case you're wondering? i'll miss y'all but not much since i'll be too busy blissing out to really care for the technology i can't use. hell i'm not even bringing a flashlight!

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you know what else i won't miss? my shower.

when i get home on monday i am going to be a hellaciously stinky girl who will have gone swimming something like eight times (last year's total and current record) and will have spent probably seven hours in the water all told.

ahhh fresh water mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

leaving aside just how dirty that lake is because it's all just algae type stuff caused by live organisms and heat. so yeah, don't do it if you have open sores and a tendency to infection.

otherwise? party on garth!