.

.
there is something about sitting down at the keyboard with nothing to say that frees you to find out what you're really thinking about. in this case it turns out that i think i need to take a week off from climbing.

it should be this week but mg as of saturday is working 16 days straight so i think i'll take it easy this week and take next week off. i have this niggling thing going on with the lowest part of my wedding ring finger that especially hurts whenever i make a fist or try to grab a pocket.

but it's more than that. my brain is refusing to cooperate. i'll be sitting on a wall looking at a move that's totally obvious and yet i can't think of shit to do. i'll try stuff sort of half heartedly and yet i'll know before i try that it isn't going to work.

i can't finish a problem that i sent the first five times i tried it. (as in sent the FIRST time i ever did it)

this all shouts out 'GET SOME REST!' it's just that i don't want to. there's some stuff going on in my head that seems to want to get tossed at a wall (although it's mostly gone) and more than that my body is all addicted to the amount of exercise that it's currently getting.

ah well, class with rr tomorrow and i'll ask her about my hands.
.

there are a few bloggers who are very intermittent with how often they actually have a blog up and i've decided that since most of them make it about 6 weeks before they delete their blogs that i am no longer linking anyone until they've been up at least a couple of months. i'm sorry if this offends you but editing the links list on a weekly basis is getting to be irksome.
.

i'm literally staring at the screen and my fingers are twitching and yet nothing is coming out. this is tough because it feels like time to post. the truths post got both more and less reaction than i expected but the comments section for it is clearly dead. it was neat to see what truths hit what people. i still want to hear if any got you.

i'm having a very blah monday afternoon.
.

mmmm eggs and pita and potato patties. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

suddenly all things in life seem so much brighter!
.

okay it's many hours later and i've done some teaching and some smoking and some scrabble with hubris and mightydoll and i have to say. that scrabble game?

worst.scrabble.game.EVER.

no really. ever.

it was so bad i can't even tell you. they fully concur by the way, it was bad. the board was all crazy and closed and impossible and we stopped even challenging if we didn't think that things were words.

don't misunderstand, the company was excellent and many laughs were shared. extra in fact because the recent supply we acquired is fucking excellent. no dudes. *i* am saying it's fucking excellent.

yeah.

anyway at least we were laughing our fool heads off while having the worst scrabble game ever. that helped a lot.
.

i'm currently expanding my repertoire of books. in other words i've read all of the science fiction and fantasy books and so i need to find something else to read. i sort of feel like i've read most of the mysteries and the romances also so i've taken to soliciting book advice from just about anyone.

this is getting pretty fun actually because i've just read tania's stolen david sedaris book and it's excellent. i'm reading 'a long way down' by nick hornby right now and man is that book ever funny for a book about a bunch of suicidal nutcases. hubris tonight lent me a wonderful looking cover called about looking by john berger. it looks great and i'm really looking forward to it.

i can't explain why i feel like it will be a great book but i said 'lend me the one book in your collection you really want me to read' so i have high hopes.

it's really fun exploring other people's books. i've been doing it with my sister and my parents my whole life but we're all related so at this point there's a lot of commonalities. i do need to get my hands on my parents book shelves in italy though, there's a stack and a half of books there that i want to read.

they really want me to come and visit and i can't figure out how to make it happen. i've been living too close to the bone for too many years now and i just can't seem to make a cushion. i will be done fixing the car soon but damm i'm cutting it close. i'm waiting for a thousand bucks from one place and it may or may not come this week. i really need it because yeah it pays the mechanic in one fell swoop.

dear universe. send cheque please, i can't wait any more. the clutch is being described as 'borderline' now and i'm expected to be smelling burning.

BURNING!
.

who wants to take a picture of my back for uncle matt? and i want pretty pictures too so you better know how to use a camera.
.

i have a client in less than seven hours. and then a class and a client and a session with rr and THEN two more classes. that's one shy of the number i need to teach in a tuesday to make it a worthy day.

ah well time for a new client or two.

see what happens when you complain about being busy? life is funny.

but you know what?

I GET TO SLEEP IN ON SUNDAY MORNINGS!!!

night.