break break break

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okay here goes.

*wanders off to kitchen and juices an orange*

holy fuck it takes a whole orange to get four ounces of juice? i should have bought a bag full!

*adds water to juice*

*takes sip*

*hangs out with tummy for a bit*

well let's see what happens as i take in my first calories in six days. well my first non-fast drink type of calories. this has been a very strange and excellent experience and i'm actually sorry that i'm not doing it for longer.

however, i want to drink beer on my birthday and i need at least four days to break this fast. it's strange that it's with orange juice which is something that my tummy traditionally dislikes and that it seems to be going down okay right now.

that said? it's taken me nearly an hour to drink this glass of juice and i won't have another one for at least a couple of hours. i do feel it sort of warming the pipes though. it's almost like my tongue and my digestive system are tingly or something.

i see why they pick orange juice. it's sharp and tangy but easy to water down and it feels like it's priming the pump inside me. damm y'all it's got me kind of high.
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then i had to go and ruin it by going to do my license renewal. in the afternoon.

yeah, what the hell was i thinking, next time do it in the morning!!

but i'm all legal and paid for to drive for another year so i guess i can't bitch too much.
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okay so now it's ten hours since i had that first glass of juice and i am now drinking a third glass. i've been steadily adding more pulp to the mix all day and it's really tasting good now.

what i find most odd is that the orange juice really isn't making me more hungry. i was expecting that the hardest part would be the day while i drink juice but still can't actually have any food. i thought i would be starving all day.

nope, i think the acidity in the oj is actually keeping the urge not to eat going the same way the lemon juice did. so weird.

i'm really glad that i did this and in fact i'm wishing that i had done it for longer and started it tuesday morning instead of thursday afternoon. that way i would have done eight days instead of six. ah well, next time.

this is probably the first thing i've ever done where i felt like y'all wanted an actual report.

the weirdest part for me is either that it's really so easy to do or that your moods really do change each day and different things come to the forefront. y'all know about saturday and my ragefest and that was definetely the worst, but the hopeless despair on sunday sucked too.

what's interesting is that i read a website that says that this will continue to happen because your body is flushing toxins and that you just drink more fluid and make sure to move your bowels at least three times a day and this will pass easily.

well for me it's even better, once i got the freaking plumbing working (aka sucked it up and drank the laxative tea) my mood was happy and cheerful and i didn't have any headaches.

before i got the plumbing working correctly? oh my god. i had a headache bad enough to flatten a quarterback and i was ragingly mad or depressed or basically not on an even emotional keel. i mean we're talking night and day, the last three days have been lovely.

saturday and sunday? pretty shitty.

the headache i had on the weekend did give me one clue though, next time? quit caffeine at least a week or even ten days before you start a fast because holy fuck the withdrawl headaches suck. and you can't fix them with food and sugar like you can when you're eating.

boo yeah caffeine headaches combined with toxins and not shitting? bad stuff let me tell you.

so tomorrow i have more lemon drink and more juice and then i can have vegetable soup for late lunch or dinner. i'll decide based on how a cup of the soup broth goes down at lunch. i'm currently wandering the web looking for soup recipes that go with:

In the evening make a vegetable broth (no canned soup). Use seasonal leafy and root vegetables such as: beets and beet tops, turnips and turnip greens, kale, carrots, onions, parsley, celery, potatoes, okra, one or two inds of legumes, squash, beans, a little salt, cayenne pepper and dehydrated vegetables or veg. powder may be added for flavor (no MSG or hydrolyzed protein).
Cook lightly. Drink the broth, eating only a few bites of the vegetables.

make a vegetable broth? how much water? how many carrots? how long is lightly? how on earth do squash and celery cook for the same amound of time? what the fuck? i hate not having a recipe. any home cooks out there have some tips for me? it's looking like about 8 cups of water to however much of whichever veg i feel like using...

and re the legumes? which ones do y'all think would go well in that crazy mix? i was just going to get some peas or something but it's tough.

*grumble* not making this easy are they?

seriously i don't make soup, if anyone has advice before noon on thursday i WANT IT! :)

hey tomorrow is thursday... that means if i go wandering the web right now i'll find a bunch of half naked peole. sorry i got nothing but my computer died and i'm on the old slow one with no pics. :)

oh wait... here's one of me as a baby... okay toddler

those colours are real.

i know, hard to believe :)